Lori's Weird Life

Well here I am again

2011-03-02T08:24:00.000-08:00

I had totally forgot that I had posted the last blog about Lisa. Not too much going on. I'll write more later. See ya

Will I Ever Be Able to Laugh Again?

2011-01-21T08:22:00.000-08:00

On Wed. January 12th, 2011, my daughter Lisa passed away. Her husband Paul Pursley killed her, their three puppies and himself. The funeral was Tuesday Jan. 18th. Cheryl came up Thursday night and stayed until yesterday. It has finally quieted down. I am not myself. I can't think right, everything is weird and I can't bring myself to clean house or do much of anything. I just can't stand this. I wish I knew how to change everything back the way it should be.

What a day!

2011-01-07T16:05:00.000-08:00

Lisa called. The first time that I have talked to her for two years. She is fighting with Paul and left him last night. She is staying at Ty's. It has been a very trying day for me. I have been out of sorts all day and after I talked to Lisa, I am now really screwy.
Max is going to McDonald's to get us supper. Ya Hoo! That sounds so good. I really am not up to cooking tonight. I am out of groceries anyway. I just haven't felt well since before Christmas. I have been very tired and lazy. I just haven't wanted to do anything. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I have a ton of stuff to do!!
Well hopefully now I will be keep up with my blog. I haven't posted forever. I have been organizing my computer/craft room. It is looking good!
I've got to go now. See ya!

Oooo Boy what a Day

2010-03-19T11:55:00.000-07:00

Hi there Blog I am finally up and moving. I slept very late this morning. I have been sick since December with various things and I think my body is still worn out. Well I can't stay long, I need to get up and move around a little bit. See you later.

Hello there

2010-02-27T20:42:00.000-08:00

Oh what a day it's been. Christian is visiting for the weekend. He arrived yesterday after school and will be going home tomorrow. I feel kind of guilty. I was pretty rough with him this afternoon. He just wouldn't mind me or Max and he would not pay attention to what he was doing. I scolded him big time this afternoon. I have been sooo tired today, didn't sleep much last night, and I guess got tired of his bad manners and not minding us. My kids wouldn't mind me and broke everything they touched and I don't tolerate that with my grandkids. I need to go to bed soon. I was sitting on the couch holding Christian while I was waiting for him to go to sleep and I dozed off for awhile. Anyway I think I will go now. My eyelids won't stay open. Lori

It's Totally Me

2010-02-24T08:24:00.000-08:00

It is morning and I got up. Not very early but I did crawl out of bed. I have been so tired the last week or two, I can hardly move. I have some more housework today. I have been working on it for about a week. The house was sure dirty. The sad thing is been I get finished up with the rest of my chores I will have to start over again. Grrrr!!!!! Well enough for know. I want to work on my Adobe Photoshop Elements 4.0 for a bit. I am trying to figure out layers.

TaTa, Lori Jean

Life is hard, Death is harder

2010-02-07T09:21:00.000-08:00

Life has been pretty depressing. We had to put our best friend, my baby girl Chloe, to sleep on the 12th of January. She was really old and was getting very sick. She had cancer. Colleen came and took her to the vet for us. It was really rough going there for awhile. It's a little better now but not much. The day after I came down with a horrible cold which I think was a part of the flu that I was trying to get over. I was sick for another week. Finally feeling better. I was running low on meds so called in my perscriptions on Friday and went to pick them up yesterday but the pharmacist said Medicaid refused to fill a few of them because I was getting name brand. I think they didn't let me have Depakote, Ultram and Provigil. Now I have to call my doctors tomorrow and get that straightened out. Today is the seventh in ten days I go to see Dr. Kiser. Well the weather sure sucks here. It has been sooo cold and dreary and looks like it is going to stay this was forever. I have been working on my pictures and getting them all straightened out so I can start scrapbooking again. I really should do some housework today but I sure don't feel like it. Maybe this afternoon I will at least do laundry, it is really piling up. Man days like this I just want to get warm and sit in front of the computer, sigh! Oh well that's life.

I'm back

2010-01-27T10:04:00.000-08:00

Today is not a good day but that's been the norm for the last two months. It started out around the first part of January. I got really sick with the flu. Headache, nausea, fever, you name it. I was sick for about ten days. Then on Tuesday, January 12th, (the same day Mike was killed) I called Colleen and was telling her that Chloe wasn't doing so well and that I would have to have her put to sleep but I didn't know who I could ask to do it. Well she volunteered and she took Chloe to the vet. Max and I were so upset as you can imagine. Then the next day I woke up with a sore throat, body aches and a bad cold. That lasted about a week. Last Saturday I hurt so bad with fibro that I sat on the couch all day long. I still don't feel very good. Curt came to visit on Sunday and told us that Colleen had suffered a small stroke the Sunday before. Well then on top of all that, I wasn't paying close enough attention to my meds and started to run out of everything. I called Dr. Kiser's office (or I thought I did) last Thursday and asked for a refill of morphine. I then ran out on Sunday and was in agony, my prescription didn't show up on Mon or Tue morning (yesterday) so I borrowed some Vicodin from Missy. I then called Dr. Kiser's office again (or so I thought) and left a voice mail asking if the script had been sent. Michelle (Dr. Kiser's nurse) called me back and chewed me out, apparently I had been calling Dr. Michelle Arnold's nurses' voice mail. I felt really stupid!!! Well then the pharmacy called back and they had finally gotten it. Max called around then that he was on his way home. He had went to Chadron and Hay Springs so I had him stop and pick up my morphine. God that helped so much. Well today I don't feel very good still, I'm achy, cold and don't want to do anything. The house is a disaster and I don't really care. I hope I perk up pretty soon. I think I am really depressed. I need to take my meds like I am supposed to and get this under control. Then maybe I can get my cleaning schedule and my life back to some resemblance of a normal life. It is hard to do though, life is just so hard for me. I prefer to just hide and do nothing. Oh well, life goes on and I just need to deal with it. Sigh...

Okey Dokey

2010-01-21T13:11:00.000-08:00

Dear Blog, It has been a very, very long time since my last post. Too many things have happened and definitely nothing joyful has happened in the last few months. Well to start out, I have been very sick with the flu. It all started after New Years around Jan 7. High temps, vomiting, nausea, incredible bad headache and a seriously awful backache. I should have been in the hospital as sick and dehydrated as I was. Well then I started to feel a little better but I knew our beloved Chloe wasn't doing so well. She had been really lethargic for a few weeks but I just blamed it on the big cold spell we were having. (Wind chills as bad as -57 degrees) She also had began to smell, a little worse all the time. It was a urine, sickly sweet smell. I thought at first that it was Toby peeing on her. Occasionally he would unintentionally squirt her. Well anyway I had Max give her a bath that weekend and it helped slightly but not much. I told Max I thought it was coming from inside her, that she was really sick with cancer. I called Colleen on Tues. Jan 12th and we got to talking about Chloe and I cried and cried. I didn't know who to have take her to the vet and have her put to sleep. Finally Colleen said, I will come into town now and take her. Colleen and I both knew it was better to get it done with then to keep torturing ourselves over it. Well Max was gone when Colleen and I talked. When he got home I told him the deal and he said he wanted to wait. He wasn't ready yet. Then Colleen showed up and she talked Max into it. It was a very hard thing to do. She has been our baby for almost 16 years. I know it was unbearable for Colleen but she took care of Chloe. OK that's enough. I don't want to start bawling again. Well then the next day I was sick again, sore throat, sore sinus's, body aches, etc. So I fought with that for days. This last Tuesday night, I went to bed at 6 pm and didn't wake up till 9 am. I took it easy all day yesterday. Didn't sleep much last night but I feel pretty good. I have taken a lot of Morphine today. Just tired of hurting. This much Morphine makes me feel really weird but it feels good not to hurt so bad. My intestines kind of hurt today, they do that occasionally. I just called to get that refilled. I need to go through my meds again and call in what I need. So anyway I haven't gotten anything done today either. Just been working on my blog. This weekend (starting tomorrow) I need to clean house. It is getting really bad. Oh and one more bad thing. Toby chewed the cord in two for Donell's Nintendo Wii. I must buy her a new one soon. Sigh... Always something!!!

Today

2009-11-29T12:35:00.001-08:00

Today is Sunday. I had a sleepless night last night and slept until noon today. I should be ashamed but I'm not. I need my beauty rest lol. I have to get paper work and stuff caught up and here I am playing around with my Windows Live page and other cool stuff I'm finding. It is amazing all the stuff you can do. Adding my blog and FB to my Windows Live page. Personalizing My MSN page. Adding and changing toolbars. OMG I am getting confused with everything. I am hoping that I don't mess up on the permission settings. I don't want everybody to see my Blog and some of my other stuff. If I can't figure some of this stuff out, I will have to start downsizing and go back to the relatively simple stuff, if there is anything like that, Teehee. When I was younger all the new technology and cool stuff you can do would have been easier to learn. The older I get, the harder it is. When I first got a computer around 1995 they were so simple but at the time they were so complex, complicated and fun. They were a real challenge just to keep running and there was little internet stuff. NOTHING like they have now. Stuff changes so fast now it has become a blur. Well I better get busy, maybe more posts later. Ciao

Lately

2009-11-19T15:49:00.000-08:00

Went to Scottsbluff yesterday for a Dr appt. with Dr. Kiser. He prescribed me Morphine Sulfate ER to take every eith hours. So far it seems to be working well. Last night was bad I couldn't sleep and was awake most of the night. Very sleepy today! Yesterday at Walmart Max bought me a new camera! I love it. I have been trying to clean up the favorites foler. I was going to zip right through it, Yeah Right it is taking me all day long. Sigh...I think I'll stop here for a while, can't keep my eyes open. TA TA for Now...

Today

2009-11-14T15:43:00.000-08:00

Oh what a day, nothing too exciting. Richard and Ilse were here, they packed up more of Marcella's stuff and headed for home today. I don't envy the work they have to do. Today I haven't done much, I have heartburn and a bad headache. I'm am really way out there. Nothing sounds like fun and I'm gloomy. My fingers are split and cracked like usual, makes it hard to type. I brushed the dogs this afternoon and Max helped my cut their toenails. They were awful on Chloe, they curl under her feet. Owwwie. I think I will go have Max help me fix some supper. Baked potatoes sound good. Talk again soon hopefully!!

Things Today

2009-10-10T13:37:00.001-07:00

I am still trying to figure this all out. I installed all this stuff from Window’s Live last night which is kind of confusing. I thought it was a new browser which it isn’t (I think) but you can have your own page. Your page can have lots of stuf on it. I wanted to blog but when I installed it, it said I must sign up on a blog site. So I picked Blogger, I knew that was a popular one. I figured out you had to go to start, window live folder and Live Writer to blog on this site. Weird that Blogger is somehow working with Windows Live. I am wondering if I will ever figure this all out!!! Plus when I click on Live Writer I keep getting a error message but when click on cancel it lets me on here. I should quit writing so I can see if it posts right. More Later Lori

2009-10-10T13:17:00.001-07:00

Hello all

2009-10-09T19:03:00.000-07:00

Yoohoo My very first blog. I am pretty excited even though I have no idea what to say. Well I'll start with the date, today is Friday, October 9, 2009. I have realized that I really have a surprising large amount of things I want to post on here. The problem is time!!! I am so far behind with house stuff I can't even describe it. I have tons of paperwork, computer cleaning, photos to sort, house cleaning (of course) and everything you could imagine and things you could never imagine. Sigh....I am so tired. I think I am going to bed and am going to read my True Blood book. Tomorrow I need to take a bath, get a few things done and watch Jonathan. Marcella's funeral is on Monday so I need to make sure I have clothes to wear. So much to do so little time.