I'm back

Today is not a good day but that's been the norm for the last two months. It started out around the first part of January. I got really sick with the flu. Headache, nausea, fever, you name it. I was sick for about ten days. Then on Tuesday, January 12th, (the same day Mike was killed) I called Colleen and was telling her that Chloe wasn't doing so well and that I would have to have her put to sleep but I didn't know who I could ask to do it. Well she volunteered and she took Chloe to the vet. Max and I were so upset as you can imagine. Then the next day I woke up with a sore throat, body aches and a bad cold. That lasted about a week. Last Saturday I hurt so bad with fibro that I sat on the couch all day long. I still don't feel very good. Curt came to visit on Sunday and told us that Colleen had suffered a small stroke the Sunday before. Well then on top of all that, I wasn't paying close enough attention to my meds and started to run out of everything. I called Dr. Kiser's office (or I thought I did) last Thursday and asked for a refill of morphine. I then ran out on Sunday and was in agony, my prescription didn't show up on Mon or Tue morning (yesterday) so I borrowed some Vicodin from Missy. I then called Dr. Kiser's office again (or so I thought) and left a voice mail asking if the script had been sent. Michelle (Dr. Kiser's nurse) called me back and chewed me out, apparently I had been calling Dr. Michelle Arnold's nurses' voice mail. I felt really stupid!!! Well then the pharmacy called back and they had finally gotten it. Max called around then that he was on his way home. He had went to Chadron and Hay Springs so I had him stop and pick up my morphine. God that helped so much. Well today I don't feel very good still, I'm achy, cold and don't want to do anything. The house is a disaster and I don't really care. I hope I perk up pretty soon. I think I am really depressed. I need to take my meds like I am supposed to and get this under control. Then maybe I can get my cleaning schedule and my life back to some resemblance of a normal life. It is hard to do though, life is just so hard for me. I prefer to just hide and do nothing. Oh well, life goes on and I just need to deal with it. Sigh...