Will I Ever Be Able to Laugh Again?

On Wed. January 12th, 2011, my daughter Lisa passed away. Her husband Paul Pursley killed her, their three puppies and himself. The funeral was Tuesday Jan. 18th. Cheryl came up Thursday night and stayed until yesterday. It has finally quieted down. I am not myself. I can't think right, everything is weird and I can't bring myself to clean house or do much of anything. I just can't stand this. I wish I knew how to change everything back the way it should be.